Daily Blog

Today has been a pretty good day. My step dad started his first day at his new job and I have just been keeping to myself. My ex boyfriend Jamie told me he's still "in love" with me but truthfully I'm just not ready to be in a relationship with ANYONE. I have my own problems to worry about to be worrying about his. I mean he just doesn't understand the fact that I am not stable enough for all that right now. I actually want to be something in life and according to him he has no plans at all for his future. Jamie buys me things but usually I don't even want to accept it because money can't buy my love and hopefully he understands that. Honestly, I don't no what else to do with my life at this point but what I am trying to do is become stronger in faith and my relationship with my Lord and Savior. I can feel that it's time for me to change my life around for the better. I know it won't be easy but I will try my hardest. I mean I'm making progress. I have been praying and I haven't cut myself in about a week and a half. I hope I can continue to do this. But as far as I know.. school starts tomorrow and I know that it will test my new outlook on life for sure.. 

The Beginning

So I guess my story kinda begins like this I was born September 7th. I guess I was a pretty descent kid as far as I know. Hmm.. I never used to speak my mind and I just used to hold things in. Yeah, I have gone through things the average kid/teen doesn't. From guns to drugs to gangs. I've experienced it all and I want to tell you guys My Story. And between me and you, you'll be the first to hear it. Basically, I'm depressed, suffer from anxiety, and a self harmer.. if that's a word. I know that it's nothing to brag about but I'm trying to better myself as time goes on. It seems as if every time I take a step forward I get push 2 steps back. Corny right? But so true. Hopefully this blog will give me the opportunity to share my story with the world and express myself in ways that I would never in any other place. It'll be different.. Although I'm always up for a challenge.