Today has been a pretty good day. My step dad started his first day at his new job and I have just been keeping to myself. My ex boyfriend Jamie told me he's still "in love" with me but truthfully I'm just not ready to be in a relationship with ANYONE. I have my own problems to worry about to be worrying about his. I mean he just doesn't understand the fact that I am not stable enough for all that right now. I actually want to be something in life and according to him he has no plans at all for his future. Jamie buys me things but usually I don't even want to accept it because money can't buy my love and hopefully he understands that. Honestly, I don't no what else to do with my life at this point but what I am trying to do is become stronger in faith and my relationship with my Lord and Savior. I can feel that it's time for me to change my life around for the better. I know it won't be easy but I will try my hardest. I mean I'm making progress. I have been praying and I haven't cut myself in about a week and a half. I hope I can continue to do this. But as far as I know.. school starts tomorrow and I know that it will test my new outlook on life for sure..
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